Post by Onyxaeon on Jun 22, 2009 11:47:10 GMT -5
And everything I ever told you was brought about by a forced smile.
The tears I hide,
Call for scars to bite deep.
There's no easy way to say it:
I'm tired of fighting.
I'm tired of defending.
I'm torn between trying so hard to please you,
And not caring what you do to hold me back.
I cannot help the way I am.
I'm sorry it does not fit your ideal daughter.
Maybe I'm just a freak of nature.
An accident in your life.
It sure seems that way.
Why try to keep you happy when nothing is right?
Why expect what I cannot give,
And scold me for only doing what you always told me to do:
Follow my heart?
I wish things weren't as they are.
I wish you trusted me.
I wish you could see everything that I do.
But you don't.
And you never will.
My everything
Means nothing to you.
How can you tell me you love me,
And chastise my hopes with the same tongue?
Hypocrite.
Liar.
I see your side,
I truly do,
But I've weighed the consequences,
And they don't lean in your favor.
I'm sorry.
I'm just another disappointment.
Another failure.
Forgive me,
Or don't.
I've lost the notion to care.
Why should I when it means nothing?
I hope you look back on this day,
And curse yourself for your stupidity.
When I was told to test my wings,
I thought it meant I could fly freely.
You told me to jump from the nest.
Well, I jumped,
And now you hate where I fly.
Fuck you, mother.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=nEEWokCNuLs
My honest life finds release in this song.
The tears I hide,
Call for scars to bite deep.
There's no easy way to say it:
I'm tired of fighting.
I'm tired of defending.
I'm torn between trying so hard to please you,
And not caring what you do to hold me back.
I cannot help the way I am.
I'm sorry it does not fit your ideal daughter.
Maybe I'm just a freak of nature.
An accident in your life.
It sure seems that way.
Why try to keep you happy when nothing is right?
Why expect what I cannot give,
And scold me for only doing what you always told me to do:
Follow my heart?
I wish things weren't as they are.
I wish you trusted me.
I wish you could see everything that I do.
But you don't.
And you never will.
My everything
Means nothing to you.
How can you tell me you love me,
And chastise my hopes with the same tongue?
Hypocrite.
Liar.
I see your side,
I truly do,
But I've weighed the consequences,
And they don't lean in your favor.
I'm sorry.
I'm just another disappointment.
Another failure.
Forgive me,
Or don't.
I've lost the notion to care.
Why should I when it means nothing?
I hope you look back on this day,
And curse yourself for your stupidity.
When I was told to test my wings,
I thought it meant I could fly freely.
You told me to jump from the nest.
Well, I jumped,
And now you hate where I fly.
Fuck you, mother.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=nEEWokCNuLs
My honest life finds release in this song.
